Yosi: 3
Kape: 3... marami-rami kasi wee-wee ako ng wee-wee eh ^_^
Libro: Astrology books - christmas gift sakin ng little brother ko ^_^
Tugtog: Ang ganda ng tunog ng bagong guitar ng sister ko... ASTIG!
Angas: Si Dar... sino pa ba diba?
Wala... wala akong masabi sa ugali ni Dar yesterday and today. Napaka-immature!
To think na kaya niya kaming tiisin ng ganon?
Pakshet, sabihan pa'ko ng bumalik na daw ako sa'min?!?
TAENA, wag siyang mag-alala... one of these days pag talagang napuno ako, pagbalik niya sa bahay, wala na kami ni Darice don! Hmp!
Think happy thoughts... especially since I'm writing this sa DSP! O diba, first and last time na mag-overnight sa EEE bwehehe...
Yes, buti naman at makakalayo ako sa kanya for a few days... sad nga lang kasi damay si Darice, I won't be with her din.
Magpapakasaya talaga ako sa Cebu!
And that means, magpapakasasa ako sa yosi! ^_^
Yosi: 0... last time with Tracy nung Monday mga less than 10 siguro ^_^
Kape: 1
Libro: One by Richard Bach! At last, nakahanap na rin ako ng kopya! 185 bux dun sa used bookstore sa S.C.
Angas: Marami... umpisahan na natin sa...
My Mom Thinks (she actually told me) That I'm A Bad Mother
Just because Darice's kuliti has progressed to a big fat lump on her left eye. And baka ma-operahan na yung mata niya.
Aargh. Eh anong magagawa ko eh talagang ganon yung nangyari. Maiiwasan ba yon? Eh kung hindi naman ooperahan eh di kakalat na. Inasikaso ko namang mabuti yung mata niya, I did what the doctor told me. Kahit naman na-ipatingin ko sa doctor uli ng mas maaga yung mata niya, ganon din naman yung progression ng kuliti niya. It had to develop like that, you can't stop it from looking like that eh ganon talaga gumaling ang kuliti! Puking-inang-shet talaga.
Tapos, bakit daw ang payat. Eh hello, body type is not an indication that Darice is NOT healthy. She hasn't gotten sick for a while. She eats enough, drinks Milo everyday, and drinks vitamins. Problema kasi niya dada siya ng dada di naman niya alam kung anong ginagawa ko dito para kay Darice.
Tas sasabihin niya, ibigay ko na lang sa kanya si Darice kung di ko naman daw inaalagan. Pakingshet! God, she thinks ang galing-galing niyang magpalaki ng anak eh my two sisters just absolutely hate her (exagg.... basta, they don't like her). And look how I turned out!
Kahit kelan talaga, isang napaka-negative talaga ni Mommy. Alam na nga niyang (malamang) worried na rin ako dun sa mata ni Darice, lalo pa niya akong ipapa-down. Tapos nagalit pa sakin: bakit daw masama loob ko sa kanya na sinasabihan nya ako kung pano maging mabuting ina? Eh hello, baka gusto mong sabihin in a very nice way without making me feel like I'm the worst mom in the world! How would I go on being a mother eh feeling ng nanay ko wala naman talaga akong kuwentang nanay, and that dapat ipamigay ko na lang anak ko?
Ganyan din siya nung nambabae si Dar eh. Nagpaka-negative na naman...mapapalitan ko naman daw si Dar kahit ganito na daw ako. Watdapak is that supposed to make me feel?
Mommy, di ba kayo marunong mang-comfort?
Tapos Dumagdag Pa 'Tong Si Dar
Syempre, itong isang 'to, di rin papatalo sa negativity.
Sabi sakin makinig rin naman daw ako sa kanya tungkol sa paggamot kay Darice. Eh hello, kaya nga nag-mukhang masamang nanay ako ke Mommy eh kasi ayaw niyang ipa-doctor si Darice. Akala niya kasi what would work for EJ will work din for Darice. Na kung ano ang mag work sa isang kuliti ni Darice, magwo-work dun sa isa. Eh kitang kita na nga na tumagal na ng sobra-sobra yung isa, ipipilit pa niya na makukuha rin yon sa gamot?
Tapos huwag daw akong pa-apekto kay Mommy. Pinagsasabihan lang daw ako. Hello!!! Iniinsulto na ako ng nanay ko! Ipamigay ko na lang daw anak ko kasi walang kuwenta akong nanay! Pinagsasabihan lang ba ako non ha?!
God! I don't know why I surround myself with all these negativity!
Tapos maaasar na nagyoyosi ako.
Geez, obvious ba kung bakit?!?
Kesa naman hanapin ko pa sa kanila yung comfort na hirap na hirap nilang ibigay, eh dun na lang ako sa yosi ko noh. Buti pa yung mga kasama ko habang nagyoyosi, nako-comfort ako, sinasabihan ako ng mga positive things, na kaya ko pa, na they'll always be there for me, na they know that I can be the best. They don't have to show me the harsh reality of the deep shit I've gotten myself into; alam nila na alam ko. And they're there to help me out.
Unlike my mom and Dar, who just keep saying na "ikaw kasi..." and "dapat kasi ganito...". They just keep on blaming me! Oo na, alam ko na, tanga ako minsan, pero give me naman the benefit of the doubt that yung ibang choices ko, there was nothing I can do!
Aargh. Gusto ko tuloy magyosi.
Kape: 1
Libro: One by Richard Bach! At last, nakahanap na rin ako ng kopya! 185 bux dun sa used bookstore sa S.C.
Angas: Marami... umpisahan na natin sa...
My Mom Thinks (she actually told me) That I'm A Bad Mother
Just because Darice's kuliti has progressed to a big fat lump on her left eye. And baka ma-operahan na yung mata niya.
Aargh. Eh anong magagawa ko eh talagang ganon yung nangyari. Maiiwasan ba yon? Eh kung hindi naman ooperahan eh di kakalat na. Inasikaso ko namang mabuti yung mata niya, I did what the doctor told me. Kahit naman na-ipatingin ko sa doctor uli ng mas maaga yung mata niya, ganon din naman yung progression ng kuliti niya. It had to develop like that, you can't stop it from looking like that eh ganon talaga gumaling ang kuliti! Puking-inang-shet talaga.
Tapos, bakit daw ang payat. Eh hello, body type is not an indication that Darice is NOT healthy. She hasn't gotten sick for a while. She eats enough, drinks Milo everyday, and drinks vitamins. Problema kasi niya dada siya ng dada di naman niya alam kung anong ginagawa ko dito para kay Darice.
Tas sasabihin niya, ibigay ko na lang sa kanya si Darice kung di ko naman daw inaalagan. Pakingshet! God, she thinks ang galing-galing niyang magpalaki ng anak eh my two sisters just absolutely hate her (exagg.... basta, they don't like her). And look how I turned out!
Kahit kelan talaga, isang napaka-negative talaga ni Mommy. Alam na nga niyang (malamang) worried na rin ako dun sa mata ni Darice, lalo pa niya akong ipapa-down. Tapos nagalit pa sakin: bakit daw masama loob ko sa kanya na sinasabihan nya ako kung pano maging mabuting ina? Eh hello, baka gusto mong sabihin in a very nice way without making me feel like I'm the worst mom in the world! How would I go on being a mother eh feeling ng nanay ko wala naman talaga akong kuwentang nanay, and that dapat ipamigay ko na lang anak ko?
Ganyan din siya nung nambabae si Dar eh. Nagpaka-negative na naman...mapapalitan ko naman daw si Dar kahit ganito na daw ako. Watdapak is that supposed to make me feel?
Mommy, di ba kayo marunong mang-comfort?
Tapos Dumagdag Pa 'Tong Si Dar
Syempre, itong isang 'to, di rin papatalo sa negativity.
Sabi sakin makinig rin naman daw ako sa kanya tungkol sa paggamot kay Darice. Eh hello, kaya nga nag-mukhang masamang nanay ako ke Mommy eh kasi ayaw niyang ipa-doctor si Darice. Akala niya kasi what would work for EJ will work din for Darice. Na kung ano ang mag work sa isang kuliti ni Darice, magwo-work dun sa isa. Eh kitang kita na nga na tumagal na ng sobra-sobra yung isa, ipipilit pa niya na makukuha rin yon sa gamot?
Tapos huwag daw akong pa-apekto kay Mommy. Pinagsasabihan lang daw ako. Hello!!! Iniinsulto na ako ng nanay ko! Ipamigay ko na lang daw anak ko kasi walang kuwenta akong nanay! Pinagsasabihan lang ba ako non ha?!
God! I don't know why I surround myself with all these negativity!
Tapos maaasar na nagyoyosi ako.
Geez, obvious ba kung bakit?!?
Kesa naman hanapin ko pa sa kanila yung comfort na hirap na hirap nilang ibigay, eh dun na lang ako sa yosi ko noh. Buti pa yung mga kasama ko habang nagyoyosi, nako-comfort ako, sinasabihan ako ng mga positive things, na kaya ko pa, na they'll always be there for me, na they know that I can be the best. They don't have to show me the harsh reality of the deep shit I've gotten myself into; alam nila na alam ko. And they're there to help me out.
Unlike my mom and Dar, who just keep saying na "ikaw kasi..." and "dapat kasi ganito...". They just keep on blaming me! Oo na, alam ko na, tanga ako minsan, pero give me naman the benefit of the doubt that yung ibang choices ko, there was nothing I can do!
Aargh. Gusto ko tuloy magyosi.
Yosi: around 5 yesterday with Trace and Ty
Kape: 1 cappucino
I'm going to Cebu! I'm going to Cebu! (done in a very sing-song voice ^_^)
I'll sing it again: I'm going to Cebu!
So sabi ni Mam Gev, she'll pay for everything na daw. We just have to help out with the Corpus. Keri lang. Kasi ang pinagawa lang naman niya sakin yung shelley-pass [which is speech/non-speech detection of the Filipino Speech corpus (which, amusingly, is the title of my thesis)]. Tapusin lang lahat ng shelley-pass ng lahat ng wavfiles. Sa totoo lang, nakakasawa na. Pero that's already worth 7000+ pesos so, keri na yon sakin. Pero may konting gopher work pa, pero okay lang yon kasi kesa naman bum ako sa bahay diba? And Mam Gev said she'll 'let me go' when I get a job na... kaiyak naman eheheh.
Yung kay Reghz, ipapa-check lang sa kanya yung mga transcriptions ng mga DSPKids. Eh nakailan naman na siya don, so kering-keri na rin niya yon. ^_^
We'll meet ng 3am on Thursday sa EEE para by 4am nasa airport na kami kasi our flight is 5am. Then we'll arrive in Cebu by 6am. Then conference na ng 10am. I'll present my paper sa Rigney Hall. 1st session kami ni Ma'm Gev eh, una siya, tas sunod ako. Malamang pagkatapos ng paper ko, balik nako sa hotel then log-tu na lang hehehe.
Pero, wait lang! Kung kay Hizon sa hapon so dapat mapanuod ko yon. Eh wait lang uli, kasama ba siya sa Cebu?!? Hay naku, kung hindi, di na lang ako sasama, imbyerna! Joke... siyempre naman chance of a lifetime 'to (parang Fontana, and more on that later) and kahit na wala si Hizon, enjoy pa rin dapat.
Ang prob nga lang is mawawala ako sa bahay ng 3 nights (almost 4 nights kasi balik namin is Saturday 10pm pa) kasi baka mag-overnight nako ng Wednesday night kasi nga very early in the morning the next day ang meeting time. Haay. Oh well, isipin ko na lang na time yon for Darice and Dar to do some father-and-daughter bonding.
Ah basta excited nako! ^_^
Achievement: I rode the MRT by myself yesterday!
Omigod talaga, alam ko for some other people di na ito achievement and chicken na chicken na lang talaga ang sumakay sa MRT, pero hello, ako si miss-jeep-and-fx-and-cab girl lang eh. Okay, so hinatid ako ni Dar sa Quezon Ave. station and by golly, andaming tao. Gazillions! Eh mga 8am non eh so talagang rush hour. Nagpadala na nga ng empty train, di pa rin ako nakasakay. Okay lang, di nako nakipag-unahan kasi di naman ako nagmamadali, 10am pa yung appointment ko sa PriNet. (and more on that later) I think naka-sampung train bago ako nakasakay. We were a pack of sardines pa rin dun sa train na sinakyan ko. Haggard. I was constantly checking on my bag, my wallet and my phone. And of course the ticket, di nako makakalabas ng MRT diba?
Wazzup wid PriNet?
PriNet kasi is one of the companies na nabigyan ng resume ko because of Mom's contacts. Yung president ng company is the husband of my mom's ka-office-mate.
It's basically a reseller of telecommunications technology, and ang biggest offering nila is free space optics communications. They use laser technology as the 'link' between the transmitter and receiver. Okay, so pang-ECE talaga siya.
Kaasar nga kasi merong fucking technical exam! Merong question don na "Write the formula for current, with a voltage source of 12 V and a resistance of 5 ohms." Kaya pa yon eh. Eh biglang merong "How do you convert an AC voltage into a DC voltage? Draw a bridged diode circuit" Watdafuck? Eto pa "Draw the following: long nose pliers, monkey wrench, box wrench, etc..." Pakingshet talaga. Mostly ECE questions eh (actually may alam naman ako dun sa iba kasi nag EEE 107 naman ako pero forget ko na yung mga yon eh) like what are microvaves, full duplex system, how do satellites work, PABX, POTS (? whatdafuck, neverheard as in !).
Anyways, not to sour grape or anything. Pero ayoko ko don eh. First, it's mostly ECE hardware stuff. Second, man, the office was sooooooooo small. Isang room lang sila in some old building in Legazpi Village Makati. No, thank you. Third, it's from my mom. Sabi ba naman niya sakin na wag daw akong magsalita tungkol sa aking pagiging disgrasyada kasi mga kakilala niya yon? (not her exact terms pero malapit na rin)
God, sana I get a job soon and on my own para di nako makarinig ng mga ganyang comments :-(
Kape: 1 cappucino
I'm going to Cebu! I'm going to Cebu! (done in a very sing-song voice ^_^)
I'll sing it again: I'm going to Cebu!
So sabi ni Mam Gev, she'll pay for everything na daw. We just have to help out with the Corpus. Keri lang. Kasi ang pinagawa lang naman niya sakin yung shelley-pass [which is speech/non-speech detection of the Filipino Speech corpus (which, amusingly, is the title of my thesis)]. Tapusin lang lahat ng shelley-pass ng lahat ng wavfiles. Sa totoo lang, nakakasawa na. Pero that's already worth 7000+ pesos so, keri na yon sakin. Pero may konting gopher work pa, pero okay lang yon kasi kesa naman bum ako sa bahay diba? And Mam Gev said she'll 'let me go' when I get a job na... kaiyak naman eheheh.
Yung kay Reghz, ipapa-check lang sa kanya yung mga transcriptions ng mga DSPKids. Eh nakailan naman na siya don, so kering-keri na rin niya yon. ^_^
We'll meet ng 3am on Thursday sa EEE para by 4am nasa airport na kami kasi our flight is 5am. Then we'll arrive in Cebu by 6am. Then conference na ng 10am. I'll present my paper sa Rigney Hall. 1st session kami ni Ma'm Gev eh, una siya, tas sunod ako. Malamang pagkatapos ng paper ko, balik nako sa hotel then log-tu na lang hehehe.
Pero, wait lang! Kung kay Hizon sa hapon so dapat mapanuod ko yon. Eh wait lang uli, kasama ba siya sa Cebu?!? Hay naku, kung hindi, di na lang ako sasama, imbyerna! Joke... siyempre naman chance of a lifetime 'to (parang Fontana, and more on that later) and kahit na wala si Hizon, enjoy pa rin dapat.
Ang prob nga lang is mawawala ako sa bahay ng 3 nights (almost 4 nights kasi balik namin is Saturday 10pm pa) kasi baka mag-overnight nako ng Wednesday night kasi nga very early in the morning the next day ang meeting time. Haay. Oh well, isipin ko na lang na time yon for Darice and Dar to do some father-and-daughter bonding.
Ah basta excited nako! ^_^
Achievement: I rode the MRT by myself yesterday!
Omigod talaga, alam ko for some other people di na ito achievement and chicken na chicken na lang talaga ang sumakay sa MRT, pero hello, ako si miss-jeep-and-fx-and-cab girl lang eh. Okay, so hinatid ako ni Dar sa Quezon Ave. station and by golly, andaming tao. Gazillions! Eh mga 8am non eh so talagang rush hour. Nagpadala na nga ng empty train, di pa rin ako nakasakay. Okay lang, di nako nakipag-unahan kasi di naman ako nagmamadali, 10am pa yung appointment ko sa PriNet. (and more on that later) I think naka-sampung train bago ako nakasakay. We were a pack of sardines pa rin dun sa train na sinakyan ko. Haggard. I was constantly checking on my bag, my wallet and my phone. And of course the ticket, di nako makakalabas ng MRT diba?
Wazzup wid PriNet?
PriNet kasi is one of the companies na nabigyan ng resume ko because of Mom's contacts. Yung president ng company is the husband of my mom's ka-office-mate.
It's basically a reseller of telecommunications technology, and ang biggest offering nila is free space optics communications. They use laser technology as the 'link' between the transmitter and receiver. Okay, so pang-ECE talaga siya.
Kaasar nga kasi merong fucking technical exam! Merong question don na "Write the formula for current, with a voltage source of 12 V and a resistance of 5 ohms." Kaya pa yon eh. Eh biglang merong "How do you convert an AC voltage into a DC voltage? Draw a bridged diode circuit" Watdafuck? Eto pa "Draw the following: long nose pliers, monkey wrench, box wrench, etc..." Pakingshet talaga. Mostly ECE questions eh (actually may alam naman ako dun sa iba kasi nag EEE 107 naman ako pero forget ko na yung mga yon eh) like what are microvaves, full duplex system, how do satellites work, PABX, POTS (? whatdafuck, neverheard as in !).
Anyways, not to sour grape or anything. Pero ayoko ko don eh. First, it's mostly ECE hardware stuff. Second, man, the office was sooooooooo small. Isang room lang sila in some old building in Legazpi Village Makati. No, thank you. Third, it's from my mom. Sabi ba naman niya sakin na wag daw akong magsalita tungkol sa aking pagiging disgrasyada kasi mga kakilala niya yon? (not her exact terms pero malapit na rin)
God, sana I get a job soon and on my own para di nako makarinig ng mga ganyang comments :-(
Yosi: 0 (Yikee... magki-quit nako...NOT!)
Kape: 1...maya-maya bibili ako sa vending machine sa baba...
Tugtog: Fabolous and Ashanti - Into You [I love this line pala...
Angas: Not much... I'm strangely without angst today. ^_^
Friendsters: 109 yipee!
Bakit nga ba wala akong angas today?
Dar and I are in this weird phase wherein OKAY kami ha. As in. Eto pa...parang ang patient ko sa kanya (sobrang asikaso ko sa kanya kagabi and kaninang umaga), sobrang understanding ko (di man lang ako nag-comment na sobrang late na siya umuwi kagabi) and di na ganon kasakit nung napag-usapan ang "the affair".
Bakit nga ba napag-usapan ang "the affair"?
Turns out that when Dar is around his friends, mahilig pa rin mag-comment about girls passing by. And his friends' reactions? NOT AMUSED!!! They always say daw "O baka magalit na naman si Shelley samin ha..." Ha! Kala mo naman kasi Dar ang guwapo mo eh... Joke joke joke!
Anyways, sabi ko nga sa kanya, ba't ganon siya around his friends. Parang taong kalye na bulgar na mura ng mura na sobrang makulit to the nth power na kala mo kakayanin lahat ng babae na dumaan sa harap niya. I told him I was worried na since the shop was near an all-girls' school and girls will be their costumers, magkaigihan na naman sila ng mga friends niya and i-challenge na naman siya. And since around his friends nga eh dapat ma-angas na chickboy ang "rep" niya, kakagat na naman siya sa challenge, and magkakaproblema na naman kami. That was the time he said na hindi na nga daw natutuwa yung mga friends niya whenever he *jokes* or *comments* about extra girls, kasi magagalit ako sa kanila.
Di naman ako galit sa kaibigan niya eh, I told him. It's just that I had to choose between being mad at him forever (and di na talaga kami magkakabalikan forever) or being mad at his friends (na kebs ko naman talaga sa kanila diba?). So galit na lang ako sa kanilang lahat (sa friends, kay Celine, sa mga p*t*nginang mga friends ni Celine, sa mga classmates nila nung summer) and I chose to stay with him. Simple, diba?
So when I told him about that choice, parang ngayon lang nalaman ni Dar, kasi he hugged me and whispered sorry. Oh well, buti naman may show of appreciation kasi kung kebs lang siya don...
I'm off. I dunno if Diane will come back from her class. So akyat muna ako.
Toodles!
Kape: 1...maya-maya bibili ako sa vending machine sa baba...
Tugtog: Fabolous and Ashanti - Into You [I love this line pala...
Angas: Not much... I'm strangely without angst today. ^_^
Friendsters: 109 yipee!
Bakit nga ba wala akong angas today?
Dar and I are in this weird phase wherein OKAY kami ha. As in. Eto pa...parang ang patient ko sa kanya (sobrang asikaso ko sa kanya kagabi and kaninang umaga), sobrang understanding ko (di man lang ako nag-comment na sobrang late na siya umuwi kagabi) and di na ganon kasakit nung napag-usapan ang "the affair".
Bakit nga ba napag-usapan ang "the affair"?
Turns out that when Dar is around his friends, mahilig pa rin mag-comment about girls passing by. And his friends' reactions? NOT AMUSED!!! They always say daw "O baka magalit na naman si Shelley samin ha..." Ha! Kala mo naman kasi Dar ang guwapo mo eh... Joke joke joke!
Anyways, sabi ko nga sa kanya, ba't ganon siya around his friends. Parang taong kalye na bulgar na mura ng mura na sobrang makulit to the nth power na kala mo kakayanin lahat ng babae na dumaan sa harap niya. I told him I was worried na since the shop was near an all-girls' school and girls will be their costumers, magkaigihan na naman sila ng mga friends niya and i-challenge na naman siya. And since around his friends nga eh dapat ma-angas na chickboy ang "rep" niya, kakagat na naman siya sa challenge, and magkakaproblema na naman kami. That was the time he said na hindi na nga daw natutuwa yung mga friends niya whenever he *jokes* or *comments* about extra girls, kasi magagalit ako sa kanila.
Di naman ako galit sa kaibigan niya eh, I told him. It's just that I had to choose between being mad at him forever (and di na talaga kami magkakabalikan forever) or being mad at his friends (na kebs ko naman talaga sa kanila diba?). So galit na lang ako sa kanilang lahat (sa friends, kay Celine, sa mga p*t*nginang mga friends ni Celine, sa mga classmates nila nung summer) and I chose to stay with him. Simple, diba?
So when I told him about that choice, parang ngayon lang nalaman ni Dar, kasi he hugged me and whispered sorry. Oh well, buti naman may show of appreciation kasi kung kebs lang siya don...
I'm off. I dunno if Diane will come back from her class. So akyat muna ako.
Toodles!
Yosi: 1... actually 3/4 lang... sumakit ulo ko eh!
Kape: 1
share ko lang tong site na 'to: Matrix Essays. Kapapanood ko lang kasi ng Matrix Revolutions. Astig man! And if you want in-depth understanding, magbasa kayo forever sa site na yan. After I watched Reloaded kasi, nagbasa ako diyan and came the light of understanding...!
Kape: 1
share ko lang tong site na 'to: Matrix Essays. Kapapanood ko lang kasi ng Matrix Revolutions. Astig man! And if you want in-depth understanding, magbasa kayo forever sa site na yan. After I watched Reloaded kasi, nagbasa ako diyan and came the light of understanding...!
Yosi: 6 (kahapon)... ang sarap ng feeling, as in! [after 11 days of not smoking!]
Kape: 0 ... strange... pero wala kasing kape dito sa bahay eh!
Libro: Sati by Christopher Pike ... katatapos ko lang... Astig!
Angas: Erm, yoko munang mag-angas and give out negative vibes. Lalo na tonight since my head is really spinning and I can't for the life of me figure out what's making my head ache!
Friendsters: ehehehe... 102!
Aargh! Ang sakit ng ulo ko. As in pagkagising ko kaninang umaga, it was throbbing so badly, I had to lie down again. I felt like the room was spinning, and I wanted to throw up. Ops, bago niyo isipin na baka buntis ako, i-a-announce ko lang po na i just got my period last Sunday. Oki? Oki.
Anyways, sumakit yung ulo ko before I went home yesterday. I went to DSP yesterday para kausapin sina Arch regarding our Fontana outing on Saturday. Mejo na-iron out na yung ibang details. I think it was the change in temperature yesterday eh. It was so freaking hot sa labas, tas sa DSP sobrang lamig. Eh we (Drei, Arch, Diane and me) went up sa rooftop for a yosi break. So yun.
And right now, I think Dar is trying hard NOT to take care of me. Feeling ata niya it's because I smoked yesterday. Pero I don't think nakatiis siya eh, kasi he went over to my side kanina and he asked (concerned) questions kung anong nararamdaman ko, etc. Pero parang he was trying not to be near me, or be affectionate. So, siyempre ako na lang humingi sa kanya ng lambing. I asked him to lie down beside me for a few minutes, kung okay lang sa kanya, tanong ko pa. Tinabihan naman niya ako. ^_^
He's out right now. Sabi niya punta siya kay Jordan tungkol dun sa computer niya, nagtext daw sa kanya. He left his celphone dito sa may computer, and nung pagtingin ko sa inbox, wala namang message for Jordan, wala ring sent message for Jordan. I dunno. I know I'm being paranoid, pero ba't ganon diba?
Nagalit siya sakin sa Fontana nung weekend eh. Di naman daw niya kasi alam na overnight yung DSP fontana outing. Eh hello, meron bang pupuntang Fontana na hindi overnight? Di ba parang ang haggard naman nun? Tas he was laying the mother-daughter-guilt-trip na naman. Baka hanapin daw ako ni Darice. Kesyo ako lang naman ang hinahanap ni Darice. Eh punyeta, kung ako lang pala ang hinahanap ni Darice, layasan ka na kaya namin? Aargh, I wanted to shout it out to him that day. He can always leave us, he can always do what he want, he can always enjoy himself without us. Bakit ako hindi, porke't nanay ako? Eh tatay rin naman siya ah.
Pero, sometimes, I really can't blame him. He grew up without a father. How does he know kung pano ba talaga maging tatay? One time natuwa siya dun sa tatay ni Jek, kesyo parang barkada daw, etc. Sabi ko, "Ganon talaga mga tatay noh". Tas siya parang hindi niya alam na ganon talaga. Sobrang naawa tuloy ako.
Oh well. Darice is crying na naman. Ayaw kasing gumawa ng homework. Pina-supervise ko nga kanina kay Dar, nag-give-up si Dar. Sabi niya, siya na lang daw mag-abroad for work kasi di daw niya kakayanin si Darice. Good luck na lang sa'min diba? Hehehe. Ayaw niya kasi akong mag-work abroad kasi iiwanan ko daw sila ni Darice. (Pero kanina nung nagde-daydream kami about our future hi-tech home theater system, payag na siya na mag-abroad ako eh, para magkatotoo yung daydream namin hehehe ^_^)
Anyways, Darice still won't do her homework. She wants to watch TV na lang daw. Oh well, I told her that she either do her homework, or sleep na lang. Para early the next day she'll do her homework. Aargh, may pasok na kasi sila tomorrow.
Namimiss ko na ang EEE. Weird noh, kung kelan talaga umalis nako, that was when I felt comfortable with EEE.
Kape: 0 ... strange... pero wala kasing kape dito sa bahay eh!
Libro: Sati by Christopher Pike ... katatapos ko lang... Astig!
Angas: Erm, yoko munang mag-angas and give out negative vibes. Lalo na tonight since my head is really spinning and I can't for the life of me figure out what's making my head ache!
Friendsters: ehehehe... 102!
Aargh! Ang sakit ng ulo ko. As in pagkagising ko kaninang umaga, it was throbbing so badly, I had to lie down again. I felt like the room was spinning, and I wanted to throw up. Ops, bago niyo isipin na baka buntis ako, i-a-announce ko lang po na i just got my period last Sunday. Oki? Oki.
Anyways, sumakit yung ulo ko before I went home yesterday. I went to DSP yesterday para kausapin sina Arch regarding our Fontana outing on Saturday. Mejo na-iron out na yung ibang details. I think it was the change in temperature yesterday eh. It was so freaking hot sa labas, tas sa DSP sobrang lamig. Eh we (Drei, Arch, Diane and me) went up sa rooftop for a yosi break. So yun.
And right now, I think Dar is trying hard NOT to take care of me. Feeling ata niya it's because I smoked yesterday. Pero I don't think nakatiis siya eh, kasi he went over to my side kanina and he asked (concerned) questions kung anong nararamdaman ko, etc. Pero parang he was trying not to be near me, or be affectionate. So, siyempre ako na lang humingi sa kanya ng lambing. I asked him to lie down beside me for a few minutes, kung okay lang sa kanya, tanong ko pa. Tinabihan naman niya ako. ^_^
He's out right now. Sabi niya punta siya kay Jordan tungkol dun sa computer niya, nagtext daw sa kanya. He left his celphone dito sa may computer, and nung pagtingin ko sa inbox, wala namang message for Jordan, wala ring sent message for Jordan. I dunno. I know I'm being paranoid, pero ba't ganon diba?
Nagalit siya sakin sa Fontana nung weekend eh. Di naman daw niya kasi alam na overnight yung DSP fontana outing. Eh hello, meron bang pupuntang Fontana na hindi overnight? Di ba parang ang haggard naman nun? Tas he was laying the mother-daughter-guilt-trip na naman. Baka hanapin daw ako ni Darice. Kesyo ako lang naman ang hinahanap ni Darice. Eh punyeta, kung ako lang pala ang hinahanap ni Darice, layasan ka na kaya namin? Aargh, I wanted to shout it out to him that day. He can always leave us, he can always do what he want, he can always enjoy himself without us. Bakit ako hindi, porke't nanay ako? Eh tatay rin naman siya ah.
Pero, sometimes, I really can't blame him. He grew up without a father. How does he know kung pano ba talaga maging tatay? One time natuwa siya dun sa tatay ni Jek, kesyo parang barkada daw, etc. Sabi ko, "Ganon talaga mga tatay noh". Tas siya parang hindi niya alam na ganon talaga. Sobrang naawa tuloy ako.
Oh well. Darice is crying na naman. Ayaw kasing gumawa ng homework. Pina-supervise ko nga kanina kay Dar, nag-give-up si Dar. Sabi niya, siya na lang daw mag-abroad for work kasi di daw niya kakayanin si Darice. Good luck na lang sa'min diba? Hehehe. Ayaw niya kasi akong mag-work abroad kasi iiwanan ko daw sila ni Darice. (Pero kanina nung nagde-daydream kami about our future hi-tech home theater system, payag na siya na mag-abroad ako eh, para magkatotoo yung daydream namin hehehe ^_^)
Anyways, Darice still won't do her homework. She wants to watch TV na lang daw. Oh well, I told her that she either do her homework, or sleep na lang. Para early the next day she'll do her homework. Aargh, may pasok na kasi sila tomorrow.
Namimiss ko na ang EEE. Weird noh, kung kelan talaga umalis nako, that was when I felt comfortable with EEE.
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