Dar's Home!

He called me up late last night saying that he was already packing up his stuff. He said he was going home with Sir Wally and company, and they were going to leave around 9pm that night. Although I wasn't really keen on the idea of them driving along those zigzag roads at such an unholy hour, I still wanted him home as early as possible. He said to expect him around 5 in the morning.

Around 2-3 in the morning, I woke up because I heard noises downstairs. Darice woke up also, because Dar's lola knocked on our door, to tell us that Dar was indeed home.

Ooooh... giddy with excitement! I missed my baby so much!
StarStrucked

I'm sorry but this blog entry will not be a commentary on that show from the Kapuso network.

I've been a depressed freak for about a week already. I've had it with my weepy pathetic attitude. Dar is not home. This is my chance to have fun ^_^

And so when Sherwin told me through pop that the Black Eyed Peas were going to be at the Podium for an autograph signing sesssion, I immediately agreed to go with him. Hey, this is a once in a lifetime experience. Of course I won't be able to afford tickets for their concert, so a free autograph signing session is the next best thing.

The session was supposed to start at 4pm. By 5pm, I was still in the office debugging my extractor for the report :-/ My fault really, because I couldn't think straight. I was so excited: to be able to go out, and to be able to see Black Eyed Peas. And so I was able to leave the office by 5:15 and raced to the Podium.

Sherwin sent me a message saying the band wasn't there yet, but there were a lot of people already. One of the reasons I also agreed to go see BEP was that the mall was Podium. Even though I knew there was going to be a crowd, it would definitely be the 'sosi' crowd. (Forgive me if I'm a bit prejudiced)

Hmm... didn't see Sherwin at once. So I bought their CD, since I just don't want BEP to sign some shitty piece of paper. Goodbye 450 bux, hello CD-signed-by-black-eyed-peas!

Okay, so I was able to find Sherwin and Mitchie, and we waited for hours. A bunch of people were already seated on the chairs provided near the stage, and we were just one of the many peeps standing around the whole area.

Some rappers and hip-hop-ers were performing onstage. Funny - a rapper instructed the audience to say 'AYE' (or so I thought, then) when he says 'BLACK', which went like this:

Rapper: Black
Audience: AYE
Rapper: Peas (or Peace)

Nyahahaha... not so funny when I'm writing it down.

Anyways, Black Eyed Peas finally went onstage! It was probably around 7pm already (poor peeps who were there since 4pm), and the people just went wild! Phones and digicams were all up in the air, hoping that they could at least take a pic of the band. Alas, wasn't able to bring my camera coz, well, I just learned today that I was gonna be doing this.

Okays, just have to write this down, but FERGIE IS ONE HOT CHICK! One of my fave videos right now is Hey Mama, because of the way that chick grinds and moves her butt! (Am I sounding lesbian now? Nyahahah)

So they were making the peeps line up already, but the stage was being mobbed, coz the peeps from the chairs weren't lining up in an orderly manner. I decided I had to join the mob if I was going to have a chance to have my CD signed.

I grabbed Sherwin (Mitchie can't handle crowds) and we went in. Problem was, Sherwin didn't buy the CD yet, and the band was just going to sign the CD, no posters, pics or what-have-yous. Before the band came, Sherwin was still trying to decide if he was going to buy the CD. Now that he was consumed by excitement and fervor of the crowd, he just had to buy the CD. Problem was, again, that he couldn't just leave his place in the crowd coz he'll have a hard time again trying to squeeze in. Then, it was Mitchie to the rescue, bought him the CD and brought it to him in the crowd.

Now, Sherwin and I were already beside ourselves with excitement. We were being pushed forward, backward, to the left and to the right, but hell, we didn't care. Some bitchy old woman complained that *WE* were pushing her, so Sherwin told her off. (Haha. Hats off to Sherwin) Bitch.

And our time came. We went up the stage. First up was Apl D'Ap. I just smiled. Second was Fergie. My smile got wider, and I knew my face looked more stupid. When I got to Taboo and Will.I.Am, I was a speechless dumb jerk.
Hell, I became a true starstruck fan.

I was tingling by the time I got off the stage. I've never been so near such big celebrities before. (Well, Richard Gomez did put his hand on my shoulder when I was kid, but that was eons ago) It was such a rush.

All I can say is, thanks Sherwin for letting me tag along with you. ^_^ Thanks to the Podium for hosting the event. And a big thank you to the Black Eyed Peas for making my hellish week not so hellish anymore.

*Toodles!*
Tugtog: Hey Mama by Black Eyed Peas

Just came from the Podium and lookee lookee lookee!


Black Eyed Peas' Elephunk album signed by the band (Apl De Ap's signature is inside)



Apl De Ap's signature inside the CD inlay...



Here's Will.I.Am's signature...



And here's Taboo's:



And from the hot chick herself, Fergie:



I'll post more details on what happened at the Podium tomorrow ^_^

*Toodles!*
Yosi: tons
Kape: tons
Tugtog: Hoobastank - The Reason

In Turmoil

I just sent a text message. Called him up a few hours ago. And I'm itching to call him up again.

This is pathetic.

I'm so clingy - blech *shudder*

What does he do to keep in touch?

He sends a text message - in reply to mine. (I consider myself lucky if he does reply.)

He'd talk to me on the phone for a few minutes, exchanging pleasantries, then he'd ask for Darice. If Darice is sleeping, he'll just call back. (I'm just the person with the phone who can get him to talk to Darice.)

Sometimes, I forget my place. God, how could I forget? I'm so full of myself, to actually think that he would want to talk to me. That he would miss ME. That he'd be thinking about ME. That he would feel incomplete without ME... I'm at the bottom of the food chain, goddamit, so why should I expect him to feel the same way I feel about him?

So I try to hold back.

Make myself busy. Smoke a lot, drink lots of coffee, read my ebooks. Good thing I was given some work to do in the office.

Don't call. Don't text. Don't even think about him.

But being the pessimist that I am, I kept thinking, What if something happens to him? Will I be able to forgive myself that I had every chance to talk to him, tell him how I feel, but then, since I was such a stupid paranoid mess, I wouldn't, and so he'd die, and I'd be left alone with my enormous regret?

Morbid thoughts *shudder* Fueled by thousands of tragic movies and novels I've read throughout the years. Holding back always means someone loses the chance to be with the one they loved.

And so I get my phone.

It sickens me a bit. Wait for him to call, or to send you a message. Wait for him to tell you that he misses you. Just let him be the one to do it...

I might wait for nothing.

"Hi, baby..."
Officially Missing You

Dar finally went on his trip to Baguio for his thesis. It was postponed like for the longest time that I wasn't really able to process the fact that I wasn't going to be with him for a week.

And the realization hit me hard. When I came home, after Kuya Jun, Darice and I drove Dar to Yia Hall (where his group and Sir Wally were going to meet), our room suddenly felt odd.

He wasn't going to be in front of the computer.

He wasn't going to be lying next to me while I watch TV.

He wasn't going to be able to give Darice her medicine.

He wasn't going to be next to me while I go to sleep.

Seven days. Seven nights.

I never knew it was going to hit me as hard as it did.
How I wish I could sing this song to him.....

Everything
Alanis Morissette


I can be a nightmare of the grandest kind
I can withhold like it's going out of style
I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen
And you've never met anyone who's as positive as I am sometimes

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here

I blame everyone else, not my own partaking
My passive-aggressiveness can be devastating
I'm the most gorgeous woman that you've ever known
And you've never met anyone who's as everything as I am sometimes

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here

What I resist, persists, and speaks louder than I know
What I resist, you love, no matter how low or high I go

You see everything, you see every part
You see all my light and you love my dark
You dig everything of which I'm ashamed
There's not anything to which you can't relate
And you're still here


And you're still here
And you're still here...



And I wish he'd sing this to me....

Reason
Hoobastank


I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why i need you to hear


I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you


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Lyrics provided by AnySongLyrics.com



Another Day...

... of doing absolutely nothing!

Buti na lang mejo makulit ang mode ko today kaya di ako masyado inaantok kahit na wala akong ginagawa.

Since it's already 4:13 p.m. naisipan kong magsulat na ng blog entry kasi kung kanina ko pa 'to ginawa, eh di wala na akong ginagawa ngayon dibadibs?

So, maraming nangyari these past few days...

DSP Funday

Twas sobrang fun talaga! Grabe, enjoyed the company talaga ng DSPeeps ^_^

So, we met up sa EEE. Had Manong Jun drive by himself na to U.P. para di nako pupuntang Filinvest, diretso nakong EEE. Which I think was a BIG mistake, kasi meron daw sumkinda truck na tumaob (?) sa may intersection near Romulo, so I had to walk from Vinzon's to EEE! Pakshet, ngayon lang uli ako nakadanas ng sobrang init sa buong buhay ko!

Pagdating ko, almost everybody was there na, except for Dae and Mark (as usual). OJ and the other DSProbys went to buy some donuts pa sa Katipunan.

Shet, namiss ko silang lahat! As in! Ang sarap makipagkulitan kina Archie, Loogz, Gujel, Jor-el, France, Karla etc! ^_^

Malapit ng mag-4 when finally we started driving to Boomland. Hehe, mejo nagdetour pa kami kasi dapat sa ilalim ng flyover kami dadaan para mag-right to Buendia, pero noh, dire-diretso kami sa flyover, so we had to pass by Diosdado Macapagal Ave to get to the paintball area.

Natakot akong mag-paintball! Mala-counterstrike ang dating! Eh I'm not a fighter pa naman (I'm a lover hehehe)... Takot akong mambaril and mamaril!

Sabi pala nung manager ng place na usually it's the girls who are trigger-happy -- baril lang ng baril kahit na wala ng bala ^_^ Kinuwento pala niya na one time meron sila sa UPLB, yung ibang peeps don, nung nawalan ng bala, nakipag-hand-to-hand combat hahaha! Nanunundot ng baril and ginagamit yung lalagyan ng C02 na pamalo haahaha!

Napunta ako sa group 2 with Loogz, Amiel, Marien and Sir Jor-El -- the green team. Eh yung unang kalaban namin, group 1, they only had 4 members (di na kasi tumuloy si Sir Ian), so someone had to sacrifice and not play muna. Eh hello, grabbed the opportunity na noh, I sacrificed myself =P So mejo alalay lang muna ako ng green team. Taga-lagay ng vests, taga-ayos ng straps and what-have-you's and tagabantay ng mga bala (which looked like Maltesers yum yum =P ). Pero hahahHaha talo kami sa first game! Si Amiel casualty agad...

Between group 3 and 4 naman, talo ang group 3 (Ma'm gev, Gujel, OJ, and other DSProbys). Group 4 sina Arch, William, Leo, Mark and Gift. Nakuha kasi ni Gift yung flag (hehehe... AbuSayyaf daw kasi si Gift).

So kinalaban namin group 3 (loser's game). Hahaha... dapat babantayan ko lang yung flag, kaso feeling ko, wala akong macontribute and sayang naman yung mga bala ko kung hinde ako mamaril ^_^ Fuckshet, wala akong makita kasi sobrang nagfa-fog yung mask ko! Kaka-claustrophobic nung mask, meron pa kasing bonnet. Tapos umuulan pa, and kakasilaw nung ilaw sa field. Wala, wala akong nabaril, pero wala ring naka-baril sakin =P Tapos nakuha ni OJ yung flag =( Talo tuloy kami! Losers ang green team hehehe!

Tapos ang funny pa dito, si Jor-el ang nang-ratrat kay Ma'm Gev! Binulong sakin ni Jor-el na siya nga daw yung nakabaril kay Ma'am Gev sa may jaw. Eh si Ma'am Gev, naghahanap ng ice para malagyan yung 'hit' niya. So pinapa-guilty namin si Jor-el. "Ma'am san side ba kayo kanina sa field?" So sasagot si Ma'm. Tas sabay hirit kay Jor-el, "Diba Jor-el dun ka sa side na yon?" Hahahha... si Jor-el, guiltyng-guilty =P

Kung may loser's game, meron ding syempreng winner's game. And the ultimate winner of the DSP Funday Paintball Extravaganza is .... (drumroll) group 4! Ang funny pa kasi, nung game nila, naiwan si Karla mag-isa sa group 2, yung iba, deads na! Tapos, 'tong group 4, apat pa sila, di man lang sugurin and kunin na yung flag hahahaha! Nag-time-out pa hahaha! Survivor si Karla woohoo!

Then nagkaroon kami ng 'winners' vs 'losers' (groups 2 and 4 vs groups 1 and 3)... Hahaha... nakabaril ako! Hindi pa rin ako nabaril! Wala pa rin akong nakita hehehe. Tapos, masyado ata akong na-excite sa hit ko na namamaril pa rin ako wala nakong bala! Sinasabihan nako nung referree, "Ma'am, Sir, wala na kayong bala, tama na" pero wala pa rin, tira pa rin ako ng tira. Di ko kasi nagets kagad na ako pala kausap niya eh =P Mga nakatatlong tawag siguro siya sakin hehehe bago ko nagets na ako pala yung walang bala =P

Andaming food -- spaghetti, baked mac, chicken, donuts, pansit, pizza -- grabe, feeling ko nga di nako makagalaw sa vest ko sa kinain ko. ^_^

Grabe, na-miss ko ang kakulitan ng DSP sa pagpi-picture taking! Andaming maarteng posing! Parang fashion shoot hehehe. Si Ma'am Gev talaga the best, game na game palagi kahit anong gawin ^_^

Nga pala, I personally asked Ma'am Gev na if she could be a ninang sa kasal ko. Sabi muna niya, "Alam mo bang single ako?" Sus, okay lang yon diba! Diba?! Puede namang single ang maging ninang sa kasal diba?!?!

Haay, sana puedeng i-blow-by-blow account lahat ng kakulitan na ginawa ng DSP that day, pero baka maging mala-Band-of-Brothers na ito na merong mga war exploits ganyan hehehe...

Obvious bang nag-enjoy ako masyado?!?! Namiss ko lang talaga ang fun together with DSP ^_^

*toodles!*
Yosi: 4
Kape: 2
Angas: Wala akong ginagawa!

ZzzzzzzZzzzzzZzZzzZz..

I am so bored dito sa office! *yawn*

Naisip ko magsulat na lang for my blog so that I could look like I'm busy as hell (with all my furious typing hehehe) and keep my eyes open. Konti na lang talaga, makakatulog nako dito, if not for my supreme effort to keep my head away from the table.

Anyways, konting kuwento muna. Our 'batch' went out for lunch kanina sa Oyster Boy, near the intersection of Meralco Ave and Julia Vargas Ave. Yum, yum oysters! Though I wasn't really impressed by the Oyster Cake (nope, it's not a sweet dessert, more of a torta), and the Sisig serving was quite small. Pero the best yung grilled oysters with cheese nila ha. ^_^ I was expecting na sana makapag-beer for lunch (haha, tomadora talaga eh) pero syempre, di puede. Siguro next time, I'll invite Dar there, and we could have dinner, then we could have some beers ^_^

Yan na ang pinaka-highlight sa buong araw. Dapat kasi di ko minadali yung paggawa ng docu, at nagpa-dilly-dally na lang ako para at least sana I'm still doing something productive right now. Oh well, alam mo naman ako, gustong-gusto ko talaga ang mag-docu ^_^ kaya kinarir ko na kaninang umaga.

So basically I've spent the last couple of hours trying to look for something to do. Nagsulat-sulat sa notebook about past modifications I made for programs, lahat ng variables and subroutines na dinagdag ko, nililista ko... haay so pathetic! Lahat naman yon, nakalista na sa text files na naka-file sa folder ko! Wala lang, para meron din akong puedeng tignan sa work notebook ko hehehe.

Tapos, binasa ko yung last few pages ng Angels and Demons, kasi minadali ko lang yung ending eh. Obvious naman na kasi yung mangyayari, so nagsc-scan na lang ako for dialogue and yun na lang binasa ko. So kanina, word for word ko talaga binasa.

Then, nagtext-text ako kung kani-kanino, checked my mail (sa phone ko ha, using GPRS!), made coffee, washed my cup, yosi, at kung anu-ano pa para lang bumilis ang takbo ng oras. Nagsawa na rin ako sa mga mp3's sa phone ko kasi pinaulit-ulit ko na... Pero wala pa rin. Di pa rin ako na-entertain. Sobrang boring talaga ngayong araw!

May kuwento pa pala ako. Last Monday and Tuesday, nag-PowerBuilder Training ako, with 7 other Soluziona peeps sa Transportation Building (which is another term for garahe-ng-Meco). Kasama ko si Sherwin and Mico, Archie from B.I.R. and a few other peeps from other departments. Okay naman ang PB, not so hard to understand, kasi siyempre nakapag-Java nako (ows?). The best thing was gumawa kami ng Calculator (ASMD lang naman) and Notepad (though walang functions yung menu, pero puede kang magtype hehehe). Ang saya! Sana nagawa ko yun sa Java. Kaya ko pa kaya yon?!? Hehehe... Next training days namin 2 weeks from now pa, kasi nga diba elections sa Monday.

Haaay.... ang sarap! Walang pasok sa Monday! Totally forgot nga na wala palang pasok sa Monday kasi di naman ako boboto =( God, I really hope FPJ doesn't win! Please lang po! Pero mejo hopeful na rin ako kasi close fight si FPJ and GMA eh. Pero I'm still rooting for Roco. Parang siya na talaga pinaka-okay.

Huwaw, it's already 4:48 pm! 12 minutes to go! Ay wait, 8:10 ako dumating kanina so 22 minutes to go pa =(

Ahh... di ko pa pala nakukuwento kung ano na nangyari sa party ni Darice. Ayon, daming batang nagtatakbuhan sa pool and nadudulas. ^_^ Wala namang casualties eh hehehe... I should've invited all of her classmates kasi 11 lang in-invite namin, tas 4 lang yata pumunta (pero may kasamang mga sibs yung iba). Siyempre wala si Ma and Pa pero in full force mga kapatid ko, sina Micah and Toni with Tita Jing, and sina Tatang and Janine. Konti lang rin yung dumating na twopa... and get this... wala akong friend na dumating! As in! Text pa man din ako ng text sa mga high school friends ko, and I was hoping to drop the news na I was getting married na, tapos wala man lang dumating! Wala man lang nagreply! Well, except for Naomi (she replied she couldn't make it -- so okay lang na wala siya) and Anamaine (who replied na she'll attend -- pero di siya dumating!). Si Trace may sakit, and si Kat nasa Boracay. Di ko na pinapunta DSP friends ko kasi graduation weekend non eh... so baka they were celebrating or something. Kakasad talaga, wala na akong friend! =(

Di na nga ako nakapagdecorate, gumawa pa man din ako ng sangkatutak na mga paper flowers! Nagtransfer pa kasi ako ng spag sa mga styrofoam boxes for the kids, made the hotdogs, the balloons, the inflatables, the loot bags... Whew...

Pero sulit naman because Darice really enjoyed her party. ^_^

Funday pala ng DSP tomorrow! Woohoo! Excited nako! Miss na miss ko na DSPeeps ^_^ Syempre, magdadala na naman ako ng transpo hehehe. Suki na talaga kami kay Manong Jun. Buti na lang pumayag sina Ma and Pa. Di kasi pupunta si Sir Melvin eh, so isang sasakyan kaagad nawala non. Eh 22 kami nakalista dun sa sure na pupunta. Sana nga makadala si Ma'm Gev rin, and si Paolo (whoever he is -- DSProby kasi). Di sila kakasya sa MB I'm sure hehehe ^_^

Ano ba ang Funday? Wala lang, magpe-paintball lang kami sa Boomland. Hehe, first time ever ko magpe-paintball ^_^ one more reason to get excited. And then magdi-dinner yata kami, tapos may sasagot na ng food. Ooh ang saya!

Sana nga lang makarating si Drei on time. He just texted me kanina na he had to attend a meeting tomorrow (!) so baka humabol na lang daw siya... Waah =( Wawa naman si Drei... lagi na lang overtime, tapos anlayo pa ng Baguio.

Woohoo! 5:04 pm na... 6 minutes to go na lang!

Toodles!