I played badminton last night!!!
Pramis, nag-enjoy ako ^_^
Maybe it's because of my coach hehehe. Super bait ni seatmate Randy! Siya rin kasi ang nangungulit sakin ng ilang araw para mapaglaro ako ng badminton, eh. Pinagamit pa nya sakin yung raketa nya. Andami nyang naituro sakin yesterday, pero minsan, matigas lang talaga ulo ko eh hehehe. Talagang out of habit talaga, di ko ma-control yung sarili ko. :P
And lahat sila na-excite sakin. Walang tigil na "Let's go Shelley" ang narinig ko from Lory and Toto ha. Silang dalawa kasi, buong araw na nila ako *pinapa-kaba* sa aking initiation into the badminton world. At talagang sumama pa si Toto samin, eh originally di naman kasi sya daw makakasama. [Sabi ko sa kanya, "Wag ka ng sumama para walang mang-gago sakin!" :P] Gusto talaga niyang makita ang big event na ito hahaha. :D
We played at their usual badminton courts, at the Libis Badminton Center. Sadly, they just informed us last night that they'll be closing down on Monday, January 31. Haaay... buti naman at nakasama ako sa last laro nila sa LBC. At talagang nakalaro pa'ko sa LBC diba? Nakapunta nako don before, during the badminton games of the sportsfest last December. Take note, taga-nood lang ako noon. Ngayon, naglaro nako, o diba?
Some points I need to improve: I don't flick my wrist. I just move my arm forward to hit the shuttlecock. I also need footwork. Sometimes when the shuttlecocks going back and forth, napapatanga na lang ako and nanonood na lang ako hahaha :D Also, my service needs to be improved also. Di pa ako ganon ka-confident sa service ko eh. Also, I need to understand the rules more!!!!
Hmmm... parang gusto kong maglaro uli ah! Para ma-improve na yang kelangang ma-improve. Next month, pa-drop-drop na lang ako and pa-smash-smash nyan hehehe :D
Toodles!
Let's Hear It For The Boys...
Thanks boys for cheering me up!
First, to Toto, thank you for the Jollibee breakfast ^_^ I knew I deserve a token of appreciation from the Black team after I just gave them 200 points in the eXtreme* game of our bowling match last week, hahaha :D Red team, baka gusto niyo kong palaruin para mabigyan ko rin kayo ng 200 points :P (Pero di na breakfast kapalit nyan, buffet lunch or dinner na yan hahaha)
Second, to Ramon, thank you for your kuwento ^_^ Natuwa ako na meron pa palang mga matitinong lalaki na may effort at motivation sa dugo nila. Honestly, natutuwa talaga ako sa ganyang mga kuwento, at konti na lang, magse-search nako sa internet for more original date ideas :D Hope my advice regarding effort and sensitivity helps! Good luck!
And lastly, to my Dadox. Last Sunday, he sent me a text message asking me if I still wanted to have my birthday celebration sa house sa Filinvest. I answered: I'm not in a celebratory mood. He knew what happened two weekends ago, which triggered this post, and so he answered: OK, but dont let dat dampen everything else - its ur bday n we r suppose 2 b happy on such a day. Cheer up!! Awww... Dadox! Thanks talaga! Kahit na minsan di ko ma-take yung asawa mo and her biting remarks, buti na lang you're there to balance it all out! *hug*
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These boys do not know how much they've changed my day. I had a shitty weekend (again) and I was so prepared to have shitty work week. But then, in their own unexpected ways, these boys have shown me that it's better to be thankful, be hopeful, and be cheerful.
^_^ Thanks, boys!
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eXtreme game of bowling: pababaan ng points 'to... and a gutter ball is equal to all pins down. You add your regular bowling points to the eXtreme bowling points of the other team, so kelangan, mababa lang talaga yung eXtreme bowling points nyo kasi nga points yun ng kabilang team.
First, to Toto, thank you for the Jollibee breakfast ^_^ I knew I deserve a token of appreciation from the Black team after I just gave them 200 points in the eXtreme* game of our bowling match last week, hahaha :D Red team, baka gusto niyo kong palaruin para mabigyan ko rin kayo ng 200 points :P (Pero di na breakfast kapalit nyan, buffet lunch or dinner na yan hahaha)
Second, to Ramon, thank you for your kuwento ^_^ Natuwa ako na meron pa palang mga matitinong lalaki na may effort at motivation sa dugo nila. Honestly, natutuwa talaga ako sa ganyang mga kuwento, at konti na lang, magse-search nako sa internet for more original date ideas :D Hope my advice regarding effort and sensitivity helps! Good luck!
And lastly, to my Dadox. Last Sunday, he sent me a text message asking me if I still wanted to have my birthday celebration sa house sa Filinvest. I answered: I'm not in a celebratory mood. He knew what happened two weekends ago, which triggered this post, and so he answered: OK, but dont let dat dampen everything else - its ur bday n we r suppose 2 b happy on such a day. Cheer up!! Awww... Dadox! Thanks talaga! Kahit na minsan di ko ma-take yung asawa mo and her biting remarks, buti na lang you're there to balance it all out! *hug*
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These boys do not know how much they've changed my day. I had a shitty weekend (again) and I was so prepared to have shitty work week. But then, in their own unexpected ways, these boys have shown me that it's better to be thankful, be hopeful, and be cheerful.
^_^ Thanks, boys!
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eXtreme game of bowling: pababaan ng points 'to... and a gutter ball is equal to all pins down. You add your regular bowling points to the eXtreme bowling points of the other team, so kelangan, mababa lang talaga yung eXtreme bowling points nyo kasi nga points yun ng kabilang team.
Failure
Nobody makes me feel so much of a failure like her.
I'd think I've already stood up, that I've already recovered, that I've already done some good with my life, but then, here she comes with her poisonous and dagger-like criticisms.
And then I'd feel like the scum of the universe.
I am left with nothing.
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She says it is to protect me from probing questions and malicious gossip. It is to protect me from people who wishes nothing but ill-will for our family. She will not let these people drag us down.
I wanted to say, "If you didn't put yourself so high up in your pedestal, then nobody would want to make you fall."
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I did try to understand her.
She basks in other people's perception of her. People look up to her: she is an executive officer of a prestigious government bank, she just remodeled her house, her kids are studying in private schools in Katipunan... she has all the physical manifestations of "success".
And I have single-handedly destroyed that image of success.
I am that small black stain on her white blouse. It's small, unobtrusive, looks just fine, and can be worn during ordinary days. But when people are staring at her with a magnifying glass, the small black stain is trouble.
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But why can't she understand?
I am not her, she is not me. We are different. Although it may reflect bad on her, she is not the one who carries the burden.
Did she feel the *tsk-tsk* stares while I was pregnant?
Did she feel it when I was pressured to make decisions that will ultimately spell out my daughter's future?
Did she feel my frustrations and my disappointments?
Didn't she see that I had to make a wall around myself so that I could ward off other people's perception of me, so that I won't get hurt by their gossipy talk, so that I will not let them get me down?
I had to make myself not care what people think of me.
But, still, all she cared about was what people would think of her.
The only thing important to her is what people will say: that the all-successful, all-knowing, all-good woman has a daughter with an illegitimate child, living together with a man.
Never mind that the daughter just wants to keep her family together. Never mind that the daughter is trying her best to stand up on her own after years of troubles. Never mind that the daughter is struggling to do things right for her, for her daughter and for her family.
Because the only thing that she could see, is that I am a woman with living an immoral life.
That I will always have my face down on the mud.
That I am a failure.
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Nobody can make me feel so bad like my mother.
She broke down the wall and now I am defenseles. I feel vulnerable to other people's whispers. Every small failure brings my face back down on the mud as I am weak to go back up. I have no strength left to fight back.
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I am a failure. And it is because I have failed myself.
I thought more of others, rather than think of myself first.
I became weak when I had to be strong.
And most of all, its because I let her get the best of me.
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I'd think I've already stood up, that I've already recovered, that I've already done some good with my life, but then, here she comes with her poisonous and dagger-like criticisms.
And then I'd feel like the scum of the universe.
I am left with nothing.
---
She says it is to protect me from probing questions and malicious gossip. It is to protect me from people who wishes nothing but ill-will for our family. She will not let these people drag us down.
I wanted to say, "If you didn't put yourself so high up in your pedestal, then nobody would want to make you fall."
---
I did try to understand her.
She basks in other people's perception of her. People look up to her: she is an executive officer of a prestigious government bank, she just remodeled her house, her kids are studying in private schools in Katipunan... she has all the physical manifestations of "success".
And I have single-handedly destroyed that image of success.
I am that small black stain on her white blouse. It's small, unobtrusive, looks just fine, and can be worn during ordinary days. But when people are staring at her with a magnifying glass, the small black stain is trouble.
---
But why can't she understand?
I am not her, she is not me. We are different. Although it may reflect bad on her, she is not the one who carries the burden.
Did she feel the *tsk-tsk* stares while I was pregnant?
Did she feel it when I was pressured to make decisions that will ultimately spell out my daughter's future?
Did she feel my frustrations and my disappointments?
Didn't she see that I had to make a wall around myself so that I could ward off other people's perception of me, so that I won't get hurt by their gossipy talk, so that I will not let them get me down?
I had to make myself not care what people think of me.
But, still, all she cared about was what people would think of her.
The only thing important to her is what people will say: that the all-successful, all-knowing, all-good woman has a daughter with an illegitimate child, living together with a man.
Never mind that the daughter just wants to keep her family together. Never mind that the daughter is trying her best to stand up on her own after years of troubles. Never mind that the daughter is struggling to do things right for her, for her daughter and for her family.
Because the only thing that she could see, is that I am a woman with living an immoral life.
That I will always have my face down on the mud.
That I am a failure.
---
Nobody can make me feel so bad like my mother.
She broke down the wall and now I am defenseles. I feel vulnerable to other people's whispers. Every small failure brings my face back down on the mud as I am weak to go back up. I have no strength left to fight back.
---
I am a failure. And it is because I have failed myself.
I thought more of others, rather than think of myself first.
I became weak when I had to be strong.
And most of all, its because I let her get the best of me.
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All Hail The King
This movie is all about Ryan Reynolds: best buff body and H-I-L-A-R-I-O-U-S one-liners. At first, you'll get disoriented a bit because, hey, its Van Wilder Party Liaison, in such a serious role, weilding all those guns, sporting that manly beard and mustache. And then, he gets to speak his one-liners, and it turns out you're watching Van Wilder Vampire Killer Hannibal King!
As I told my friends, Hannibal King was like Puss in Boots in Shrek: he definitely stole the show from Blade.
Some of Hannibal King's lines (courtesy of Internet Movie DataBase):
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Hannibal King: I can only tell you two things... One, that hairdo is... ridiculous. And two, I ate a lot of garlic today and I just farted. Silent but deadly.
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Hannibal King: Unlike most vampires, Danica's fangs are located in her vagina.
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Hannibal King: [Enter Vampire Pomeranian] Fuck me!
Hannibal King: [Enter Two Vampire Rottwilers] Fuck me Sideways!
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Hannibal King: [to Danica] You cock juggling thunder cunt!
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Hannibal King: So, are you totally ready to sign up for one of our super secret Nightstalker decoder rings?
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Parker Posey rocks too! She looked so at ease as the vampire bitch Danica Talos; it was like she's been such a freakin' bitch her whole life! I especially love her super high-heeled shoes *drool*
Blade: Trinity was so much fun because of Ryan Reynolds and Parker Posey (uy, RR and PP, yikee :P) ^_^ But since the effects, fight scenes, cinematography are not that extraordinary, watching this movie on a clear DVD copy is enough. You'd still love Hannibal King's sarcasm (subtitles can make it so much easier for you to understand what he just said :P) and you'd still hate that bitch Danica Talos. Oh and I almost forgot Dracula! Or you can just call him Drake, since he is trying to fit in right? Drake is the cool Dracula: white silk shirt, nice black pants and LOTS of bling-bling. The best thing about him was that, in the end, he came to respect Blade. And helps out Blade pa. Coolness, diba?
As I've already said (or written): watch this not for the story, not because of Wesley Snipes, not even because you've watched the first two Blade films. This is a Ryan Reynolds film, and his Hannibal King rocks ^_^
Better Late than Never
I've been "blog-hopping" these past few days (if you could call it that: Ramil made it possible for me to *surf* the web using email, as we don't have internet access in the office), and I've been reading people's New Year's resolutions.
One of the things I learned was that resolutions, or more specifically, goals should be S.M.A.R.T.: specific, measurable, achievable, realistic, and timely.
And so I retooled my goals for 2005, to come up with SMART-er resolutions. Also, one thing that guided my mind regarding my resolutions this year was the wedding. That's why anything I have planned for 2005 is related to the upcoming wedding, and of course, for the sacrament of marriage itself. That means I have to deal, or wrestle with, my demons.
One of the things I learned was that resolutions, or more specifically, goals should be S.M.A.R.T.: specific, measurable, achievable, realistic, and timely.
And so I retooled my goals for 2005, to come up with SMART-er resolutions. Also, one thing that guided my mind regarding my resolutions this year was the wedding. That's why anything I have planned for 2005 is related to the upcoming wedding, and of course, for the sacrament of marriage itself. That means I have to deal, or wrestle with, my demons.
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Down to 120 Yup, that's my ideal weight. That means I only have to lose ***** more pounds. Then after losing those ***** pounds, I have to maintain that weight.
Now let's be more specific: I want to lose ***** pounds in three months. So every month, I should be losing ***** pounds. And every week, I must lose ***** pounds.
I'll be able to lose those pounds by: Going to the gym regularly - I mean this. I'm planning to go every Tuesdays, Thursdays and the weekend. I'm aiming for an hour and a half to two hours per gym session. I'll be concentrating on my cardio exercises. Eating light and right - Salads and sandwiches. Lessen my rice intake. Sweets to a bare minimum.
Money Matters ... A lot, so I need to save up! Our wedding budget needs a little boost, so I need to lie low from all those shoes and jackets I've been wanting to buy *wipes off drool*
My game plan for this is to try to lay away 2,500 pesos every payday, or a total of 5k a month. Oooh... I hope my puny salary can handle it. :(
CraftyGrrrl I promise to spend more time with my hobby ^_^ I have all these cut-up clothes and jeans for bags and shirts, half-strung beads for necklaces, and projects saved up in the computer which I even havent's started yet. I love doing these reconstruction and embellishment, but I find that I just don't have enough time! So I definitely have to make time for this, kasi kelangan din para sa kasal! To help out with the wedding budget, I've decided to some *crafty* things for the wedding. That's why there is a need for me to be more *crafty*, or more creative, and be more masipag, especially!
And on this note, I should not neglect all those projects I have planned or started already. I hope in three months' time eh tapos na lahat ng unfinished projects ko, and wala ng nakakalat na materials. And I should be able to come up with more creative ways of helping out with the wedding :) [My coordinator just gave me an assignment: make my own wedding invites *gulp*]
Yosi: Zero Itaga nyo 'to sa bato, by September 9, 2005, I'll be nicotine-free. [I know some will react na bakit by September pa, eh sa ganon talaga eh!]
I have no clear-cut way of doing this, but I've started to lessen my cigarette breaks already. I know that's a really really tiny step, but it's a step nonetheless. I have to begin somewhere, right?
No More Drama And by the time I get to quit smoking, I hope I'm done being the drama queen. I hope I've cleared my heart of all the fears, insecurities and lies by the time September comes along. I do not want to go into this life-binding contract with all those demons in my head and heart.
And there is only one way to deal with my demons: break down the walls that are holding them in. ;)
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The first three resolutions would be the easier tasks, because they require a sort of external change. Unlike the last two resolutions, wherein there will be a need to extract a clinging parasite from the innards of my body and soul. There is no way the last resolution is SMART - there are no specifics, there's no way I'll be able to measure it, but I know, definitely, it's achievable, realistic and timely.
I hope the stars help me out with my own plans for the year! Toodles!
According to the Stars
The following forecasts are by Astrology.com, Handbag.com, and AstroProfile.com. Suprisingly, the three sources agreed on several aspects of my life for 2005.
Deep Inside of Me January will be quiet. You'll also need some alone time during this month, especially around the 10th, when a new Moon will inspire you to get to know yourself better. [1] You'll be reflecting on the structure of your life, what you do, time with others and for yourself, and whether, in certain situations, you give more to others than you receive from them. [4]
Rock the Boat From the 20th of March on, you won't mince words when it comes to speaking your mind. Go easy on anyone less well-armed. That strong-willed trend will continue throughout April, and well past the lunar eclipse of the 24th, when it will be even harder for you to contain yourself. [1]
Certain individuals will want you to stay exactly where you've been and doing exactly what you've been doing. They'll try to restrict you because they're happy with things the way they are. Taking a tough line with them may be difficult. But if you can, you'll soon find that their attitude has changed, and they're far more understanding and far more co-operative. Be firm and follow your desires first, and the interests of others second. [4]
Dangerous Liaisons You may want to start by giving yourself some space in the realm of romance. Taking a step back from an existing relationship to look at the big picture isn't a bad idea in January -- and those who are single will be firmly in a 'my way or the highway' mode. [3]
On July 15th Saturn will make a very important move into your 7th House of Love, Marriage and Social Activities. This generally denies marriage but not always. The duties and obligations of love become apparent under this transit and only true love and commitment can weather the storm. [5]
Climbing the Career Ladder Starting March 20th, you'll want to reinsert yourself into workplace culture with a newfound zeal. Don't be shy about asserting yourself. Work is all you'll have time for over the summer, at least until mid-August. New projects will go well for you, though they will occasionally reach a hectic pace. You should break records without trying too hard.[2]
You will not only attain prosperity, but also status, prestige and recognition. On October 26th Jupiter will move into your 10th House of Career, bringing pay raises, promotions, honors and perhaps other lucrative career opportunities. Your career horizons greatly expand. [5]
Fly the Friendly Skies During 2005, you might be travelling, studying new ideas or even taking time for yourself. [4]
The most stressful health period this year is from October 23rd to November 22nd so try to reduce your activities and rest and relax more then. You'll be looking longingly at your passport. The solar eclipse of the 3rd of October may put you in the mood to travel overseas. Therefore, this would be a good time to take a holiday or go on a retreat if you can arrange it. [1][5]
Wow, looks like 2005 is going to be a very busy year for me. Good thing I have the start of the year to reflect, and the end of the year to rest. I'm really looking forward to travelling this year [I really hope those predictions come true!]. I'm also very excited about the career predictions, even though it looks like it entails more work. Kinda worried about the Saturn in the House of Love, but I do hope Dar and I weather the storm. ^_^
Wanna know your "bad hair" days for this year?
According to this, "bad hair" days or the blahs are caused by the Moon travelling through a sign of the zodiac that is antagonistic to the element of the Sun sign (that is, our zodiac sign).
The zodiac signs are divided into four elements: Earth, Fire, Air and Water. Think of antagonistic elements this way -- Fire scorches Earth, Earth traps Air, Air dries Water, Water puts out Fire. So when the Moon is in Leo (which is a Fire sign), and you're a Taurus (an Earth sign), you'd be feeling the blahs, because Fire scorches Earth. [If an astrology expert is reading this, and I'm wrong, correct me please!]
So, for 2005, here are the supposed "bad hair" days for each of the elements. I hope you plan your dates, appointments, gimiks accordingly ^_^
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[1] Astrology.com - Aquarius 2005 Overview
[2] Astrology.com - Aquarius 2005 Career
[3] Astrology.com - Aquarius 2005 Love
[4] Handbag.com - Aquarius 2005 Horoscope
[5] AstroProfile - Horoscopes and Predictions for 2005: Aquarius
Deep Inside of Me January will be quiet. You'll also need some alone time during this month, especially around the 10th, when a new Moon will inspire you to get to know yourself better. [1] You'll be reflecting on the structure of your life, what you do, time with others and for yourself, and whether, in certain situations, you give more to others than you receive from them. [4]
Rock the Boat From the 20th of March on, you won't mince words when it comes to speaking your mind. Go easy on anyone less well-armed. That strong-willed trend will continue throughout April, and well past the lunar eclipse of the 24th, when it will be even harder for you to contain yourself. [1]
Certain individuals will want you to stay exactly where you've been and doing exactly what you've been doing. They'll try to restrict you because they're happy with things the way they are. Taking a tough line with them may be difficult. But if you can, you'll soon find that their attitude has changed, and they're far more understanding and far more co-operative. Be firm and follow your desires first, and the interests of others second. [4]
Dangerous Liaisons You may want to start by giving yourself some space in the realm of romance. Taking a step back from an existing relationship to look at the big picture isn't a bad idea in January -- and those who are single will be firmly in a 'my way or the highway' mode. [3]
On July 15th Saturn will make a very important move into your 7th House of Love, Marriage and Social Activities. This generally denies marriage but not always. The duties and obligations of love become apparent under this transit and only true love and commitment can weather the storm. [5]
Climbing the Career Ladder Starting March 20th, you'll want to reinsert yourself into workplace culture with a newfound zeal. Don't be shy about asserting yourself. Work is all you'll have time for over the summer, at least until mid-August. New projects will go well for you, though they will occasionally reach a hectic pace. You should break records without trying too hard.[2]
You will not only attain prosperity, but also status, prestige and recognition. On October 26th Jupiter will move into your 10th House of Career, bringing pay raises, promotions, honors and perhaps other lucrative career opportunities. Your career horizons greatly expand. [5]
Fly the Friendly Skies During 2005, you might be travelling, studying new ideas or even taking time for yourself. [4]
The most stressful health period this year is from October 23rd to November 22nd so try to reduce your activities and rest and relax more then. You'll be looking longingly at your passport. The solar eclipse of the 3rd of October may put you in the mood to travel overseas. Therefore, this would be a good time to take a holiday or go on a retreat if you can arrange it. [1][5]
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Wow, looks like 2005 is going to be a very busy year for me. Good thing I have the start of the year to reflect, and the end of the year to rest. I'm really looking forward to travelling this year [I really hope those predictions come true!]. I'm also very excited about the career predictions, even though it looks like it entails more work. Kinda worried about the Saturn in the House of Love, but I do hope Dar and I weather the storm. ^_^
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Wanna know your "bad hair" days for this year?
According to this, "bad hair" days or the blahs are caused by the Moon travelling through a sign of the zodiac that is antagonistic to the element of the Sun sign (that is, our zodiac sign).
The zodiac signs are divided into four elements: Earth, Fire, Air and Water. Think of antagonistic elements this way -- Fire scorches Earth, Earth traps Air, Air dries Water, Water puts out Fire. So when the Moon is in Leo (which is a Fire sign), and you're a Taurus (an Earth sign), you'd be feeling the blahs, because Fire scorches Earth. [If an astrology expert is reading this, and I'm wrong, correct me please!]
So, for 2005, here are the supposed "bad hair" days for each of the elements. I hope you plan your dates, appointments, gimiks accordingly ^_^
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[1] Astrology.com - Aquarius 2005 Overview
[2] Astrology.com - Aquarius 2005 Career
[3] Astrology.com - Aquarius 2005 Love
[4] Handbag.com - Aquarius 2005 Horoscope
[5] AstroProfile - Horoscopes and Predictions for 2005: Aquarius
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